Future Tenses

I couldn’t sleep again. 

I couldn’t stop thinking about you. 

I couldn’t get you out of my head long enough for the sweet oblivion of sleep to take me. 
I would take care of you, you know? 

I would try to make every day a happy one for you. 

I would go through hell just to see you smile again. 
I shouldn’t even be entertaining this. 

I shouldn’t because I know what I want isn’t in the realm of possibilities. 

I shouldn’t think about you because you were never really mine. 
I can’t do this anymore though. 

I can’t put myself through this agony day in, and day out. 

I can’t make it unfair for you to fall in love with me. 
I couldn’t. 

I would but I shouldn’t. 

I can’t. 

And that’s the most painful part of all of this. 


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  1. Very well written. Great stuff! You’ve got my follow. Check out my comedy blog and give it a follow if you like it!

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  2. Heyyyyyy, long time no read!

    Does this blog post have a basis in fact? Sure hope it doesn!t, that this is just a product of your creative mind.

    IF it is non-fiction, I want to give you my unsolicited advice: don’t take love affairs too seriously! Sure, it’s nice to be swept in the euphoria of such an emotion, but don’t let it consume you. There’s a reason for your head being located above your heart. Sincerity, loyalty, tenderness are praiseworthy qualities in a lover. Grovelling not allowed as you uphold your “amor propio.”

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    • Haha, hi Perla. Yeah, long time no post. It’s a little bit rooted in truth. Just a synthesis of what I’m feeling right now I guess. It started out as a piece about things I cannot have and yeah, it’s a bummer. It’s me accepting that there are things that cannot be.


  3. I sure hope this isn’t based on real events! πŸ˜€

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  4. You’re back!
    Hope you feel better. Take care.

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